Holidays

Well, the big news in my life right now is that I submitted my book to Harlequin. Harlequin Historicals are currently accepting open submissions (I don’t need to be agented) along with the first three chapters. This implies that they must be looking for new authors… and it implies that I have a chance at moving forward with my dream. Even if I get rejected, this whole process has really opened my eyes. I want to write. More than anything in this world, I want to write.

And I need to write. If I don’t, I know my life will seem unfulfilled, and without purpose. God has bestowed the talent of beautiful words, and beautiful thoughts, in me, and I must translate them into the world, and make it (even slightly) a better place.

Christmas was enjoyable. I worked every day before and after it, but the day itself was very nice, as well as Christmas Eve at the Helbig’s the night before. It was nice to spend Christmas in Charlton with the family; it was warm and cozy and everyone basically got along. I’m shocked by the actions and words of my brother, though, who has somehow grown into a very selfish and superficial person… which I truly didn’t anticipate happening. But there it is. Sadly, he was one of the reasons I wanted to stay in Massachusetts, but now that reason has been taken from me, as well. I wanted as far from him as possible the other day. I’m saddened… saddened by who he is, and by how blind I was to think it wasn’t happening.

Well, big changes are in the works. I’m sure I’ll be back on to write my “End of 2008” blog entry, but for now, I’ll just say: Change is on the way. I’m half-terrified, half-excited by this prospect, but regardless, I know it must happen.

I haven’t come this far to stop now.